Taryn La Fauci

The festive season is a heart wrenching time of year to navigate infertility and loss. Harry and myself would have been 17 weeks this Christmas. "Magic" my new single is out now listen here - https://linktr.ee/TarynLaFauci

This festive season I am acknowledging the hard reality of navigating life without a much-wanted baby, all the babies that are not with us and to highlight support is available through Pink Elephants.

Since December 2019 we have been trying to fall pregnant. Almost three long years of unknowns, testing, fertility treatments, being given advice, and many tears have made days blur into weeks, months, and years. During this time many around us have fallen, carried, and birthed babies, we have not. Then in, September 2022 we fell pregnant via IVF. This was our first pregnancy. We were eight weeks when we found out our baby had died.

All I could see around me were pregnancies and babies. I felt like screaming into my phone… is it only me finding this so hard. Though I went searching on social media to feel less alone, it is music that makes made me feel seen. Writing and recording Magic was a way to process the excruciatingly painful, lonely, and isolating experience infertility and pregnancy loss is. This song isn’t a message of hope, it acknowledges the relentless trying for something you can never quite grasp. Words are so powerful, and we have a way to go to support families trying to conceive or for those who lose their babies. The day we found out our baby died I was asked when we could try again.

I just finished a 6-week Bereavement Support Program with Pink Elephants. I signed up on Instagram from the hospital bed the day we found out our baby died. Being in a safe space, surrounded by women who have also experienced pregnancy loss allowed me to grieve openly and feel seen and heard. All women and families should have access to this care. Your contribution helps provide support initiatives like this that do make a difference.